assalamualaikum my heart aches as i work my words on this small meaningful post. time passes by. either i am moving forward, standing still or reminiscing... i can only continue moving on life as harsh as it may be. my heart has endured and, in a manner of disorderly fashion, has been tested to its bare roots. i have been happy, and sadness follows suit balancing the conditions of my feelings in my heart. it would be a lie if i said i didn't see it coming. it would be terrible if i said it out loud too. but keeping it in is worse. i am a full on pessimist when it comes to anything good or bad. the good doesn't last long and the bad will eventually keep coming back. i have regarded life as sucky as it is and accepted it whole heartedly in hopes that Allah will help me through thick and thin. and HE does. never failing every single time. i am not holy, but i don't want to be damned too. it didn't come to a shock, as i said, i saw it coming. no matter what words