Chronicles of St.Nawtee

HAPPY 29th NATIONAL DAY BRUNEI DARUSSALAM!

assalamualaikum a few days ago, once again i witnessed another family leaving Geneva. this time its our lovable AP, 3G, Hjh Kam and Adib... counting up to today, including 3G and his family, i've seen 7 good colleagues leave (including 3 Ambassadors, one of them passed away too... i'll mention that on another post as a tribute, insyallah). i said it before, and i'll say it again. i never got used to seeing people leave. each one has made such a deep impact from just being here for the past 5 years. so many things shared. so many memories made. i have this feeling that i am just standing stationary on one spot while everyone is moving along. its not that i am left behind nor do i choose to stay. its just that i love that particular moment of time. just after a day that 3G left, the office seemed a bit more quieter than usual... probably its just me. probably the others also feel we lost another good colleague. but thats just for now. let me move on to

assalamualaikum, this week is just... wow. omg. must be something i've done. i can think of some karma getting back to me but still, this past week was totally the strangest of my entire time in Geneva. so many wrongs that are damn straight rightly wrong on so many different levels. i don't know whether to feel frustrated, confused, discombobulated, dismembered, depressed... wow. just so many emotions flying through. i cannot explain it in words. it renders me speechless. blank minded. zip. doo-dah. all that ill shit that be the illest. and i'll be like b**ch what?... i am a pessimist all the way. i don't believe much on good things to happen to me. life is shit as it is. but i accept the shittyness bent over while flipping the bird all to my surroundings. i've developed and upgraded my 'i don't give a flying eff' to a new high. i just hope it doesn't repeat to the next week... Allah forgive me. i know some of my sins. forgive me for that.

assalamualaikum dear Allah, for the love of life and its gifts of food... i love food. so much so it will kill me ever so quickly if i don't give it a caring attention. i've so far been physically (and mentally) experimenting in healthy living. not that i do follow it strictly. i do have my flaws as i am not perfect in every way but i have made a tremendous amount of achievement(s) throughout the past 3-5 months. as you've read from my previous post a while back, i started to get into supplement intakes. mostly protein and bodybuilding supplements. no i am not going to pump my body like other muscle heads. my main point was to build a leaner (semi-ripped) body, but most of all, lose weight. i've lost approximately 15kgs. so far i haven't managed to go below 71kgs (current weight). most probably its my limit weight or maybe i need to push harder. but frankly i am happy with this. as i said, i'll reveal the end result by June 2013, InsyAllah... lately, aft